Embrace Chaotic life

穷忙上海

Posted by Shan J. on April 24, 2022

世界上一无所有的人,只要有片刻的时间思念爱人,那么他就可以领悟幸福的真谛。
<div style="text-align: right"> – 活出生命的意义 by 维克多·弗兰克尔 </div>

仅满足于勤快高效的做事,而不去思考今日的努力将带来怎样的明天,这是对人性的背叛。
<div style="text-align: right"> – 写给未出世的你 by 阿尔贝·雅卡尔 </div>

2022-02-14

有些书就像壁炉里的火苗:我们将它从邻居家借来,在自己家点燃,并与他人分享,那么它就属于我们大家了。——伏尔泰

学习文雅的抬杠。

疫情下人与人之间的距离感让我觉得心情复杂,也让大大世界里小小的我失去了一些亲密的联结感和对他人的信任。希望新年可以照顾好一株植物,拥抱工作带来的焦虑感,更多一些与附近的联结,nudge my surroundings~

2022-02-15

Nothing really matters.

在上海都能耳闻目睹北京组里的是非,真的就离谱。

2022-02-16

经济学人强调的谷爱凌身上的美国性 和 中文媒体所报道的谷爱凌身上的华人特征,在global环境下,弹性公民和不同的政治立场碰撞让所有人变得不再那么平面。

想起三年前,2019年八月份的一个午后,在NYC K-town的一件小咖啡馆里,我当时见到了siqi

没想到一转眼时间,她已经从德国读完博后,回到了上海纽约大学继续Post-doc,当时印象深刻,她的研究方向即transnational elite education(跨国精英教育)和阶层流动。

在她播客华裔家长的教养方式,由于受到自身职业发展“竹天花板”的限制,大部分中产家庭的华裔家长都有着极为相似的育儿思路。

这是一套自身的资源再生产过程,

打破和重构曾经的威权式的东方教育方式,拥抱“白人中产”式的语境,而传统意义上应试教育式的社会上升通道的比拼。

bamboo ceiling refers to the processes and barriers that serve to exclude Asians and Asian-Americans from executive positions on the basis of subjective factors such as “lack of leadership potential” and “lack of communication skills” that cannot actually be

承认个体作为人的多重性,而非依赖身份政治的标签搞对立。

2022-02-17

对于知识只有粗浅的了解: a slight, superficial, or introductory knowledge of something. (A smattering of sth)

俳(pái) 句: Haiku. Traditional and structured, this short form of Japanese poetry is well-known for its rule of 5/7/5. Because of its minimal nature, the Haiku has the ability to paint a vivid picture in just a few words.

A World of Dew by Kobayashi Issa A world of dew, And within every dewdrop A world of struggle.

2022-02-18

The troops are amassed near the border of Ukriane and Russia two weeks ago.

2022-02-21

  1. Lower ping is better than high ping, because low ping means less lag. There are two standards: t < 50ms; t > 100ms

  2. rather than roped into the details of every deliverable.

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  1. Seem-less Experience Design

2022-02-23

大家都在问这个世界会好么?

说实话,高房价绑架了青年人,也让我们在大厂的囚笼里甘愿辛勤劳作。

想起以前还和算法RD在中卫通5楼的健身房打过ping-pong,那时候大家也不卷,彼此界限明晰,工作之余间或有些生活。

听一下今天新发现的 Bluegrass Music,毕竟选择权是掌握在自己手里的,不是么?

切忌在乎他人评价。

on the Indian market, the TakaTak Short Video App has attracted millions of downloads.

There is a single thread of videos that are quite popular on TikTok, Dialogue Dubbing for TV dramas or series. Dubbing, mixing or re-recording, is a post-production process.

释放焦虑,而非传染焦虑,以人为镜,为文化讨论的起点,而非戾气冲天的垃圾处理站。

  1. OMTM = One Metric That Matters (最为重要的关键性指标)
  2. Estimable speaker = 备受尊崇的guest speaker

2022-02-24

Joy of Life is the English name for 庆余年。

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dAOanyCokL4 How Apple is combating CSAM content

2022-02-25

That’s the heart of everything they do.

Tap into a good social media conversation. (很好的融入对话)

Generate it at an incessant rate.

Mimêsis = 模仿

mimêsis的无限多样性确保了:不是每个人都喜欢你喜欢的东西,但每个人都喜欢某些东西。

Imitation and Art by Plato, we are always attracted by somebody who are similar to us.

2022-02-28

潜意识里不知道在想什么,似乎又开始说梦话了。

Fewer meetings~ 留我条狗命,越来越多的海外同事和重重叠加的沟通壁垒,日子会好么?

在回头观望的时候,希望别丢失了自己。

Sprints 本意是冲刺,用在Agile中,指代的是一端固定的周期。Sprints are time-boxed periods of one week to one month, during which a product owner, scrum master, and scrum team work to complete a specific product addition. During a sprint, work is done to create new features based on the user stories and backlog.

Another product story was unfolding.

Swing for the Fences: What Does “Swing for the Fences” Mean? Swing for the fences is an attempt to earn substantial returns in the stock market with bold bets. The term “swing for the fences” has its origins in baseball lingo. Batters who swing for the fences try to hit the ball over the fence to score a home run.

2022-03-01

开始多了些对于stage和人生发展阶段的直接体验。

  • 前青少年时期 (Tweens): A tween (pre-teen) is a child who’s between the stages of childhood and adolescence.
  • Teens

2022-03-02

The rebuke to Russia has amounted.

Mandela Effect: The Mandela Effect is a phenomenon that makes us question even the most mundane memories from the past. 「集体记忆与真实的史实不符」

掉头要趁早,转弯不迟疑。

2022-03-03

设计和广告相似的展示形式的Banner来作为新feature release的announcement, 用户们会非常容易忽视这类消息,这个在设计中被叫做 Banner blindness, is a long-known web user behavior.

https://www.nngroup.com/articles/banner-blindness-old-and-new-findings/

2022-03-04

According to the Bark’s report, 68.97% of tweens and 90.73% of teens encountered nudity or content of a sexual nature.

下定决心,就要速战速决。

2022-03-05

We are plunging the entire country into war, and the boycott shall support.

2022-03-06

At ByteDance, you will always see many aspirants who have competed against others and got in to burn the youth time.

Never make life become endless, terrible competitions.

TT产品feature新动向:

  1. plans to add labels to ‘some’ state-controlled media TikTok will apply the label for misinformation on Russian
>>> import this
The Zen of Python, by Tim Peters
Beautiful is better than ugly.
Explicit is better than implicit.
Simple is better than complex.
Flat is better than nested.

2022-03-07

A reflection on the moving-in

Today, as an relocated ByteDancer, I moved into the new ground scrapper near Caohejin, Xuhui. Instead of the ginormous factory-like campus we had, now we are forced to take the elevator to the seventeenth floor to knock everything down and hang around in the shopping mall.

The word ground scrapper can be traced back at least to the nineteen-twenties, Russian artist and designer El Lissitzky, who argued that moving horizontally is more natural for humans than moving vertically.

“Go as high as possible, because altitude equals value” – I strongly disagree with this principle since it ignores the importance of human ecology and the tight connection of individuals with nature that humans born to bear.

I am also against “elevator culture,” and wanting to avoid such a downgrade of Green Area Ratio.

While on the other hand, the environmental, social, and governance criteria, as opposed to strictly financial concerns are becoming more popular for

In the welcoming manual, there are only few sentences about the resting areas, and one significant distinction is that for some commonly used commuting means, the planners fail to pay attention to it: Sparing the space for 800 bicycles in the hallway written in the New Yorker’s report will definitely help with the recruitment and retention of talent.

Reference: https://www.newyorker.com/news/our-local-correspondents/googles-new-manhattan-groundscraper-bets-on-the-future-of-the-office

A dark triad of social maladies

Today I read an article from the Atlantic that describes the fundamental problems in an historian’s eye. Taking the analogy in psychology for example, the dark triad comprises the personality traits of narcissism, Machiavellianism, and psychopathy. They are called dark because of their malevolent qualities.

The same story is also told by Peter to describe the fate of our own society, in the near future, things are not becoming pretty, dimmed future is enclosed with a dark triad of social maladies: a bloated elite class, with too few elite jobs to go around; declining living standards among the general population; and a government that can’t cover its financial positions.

As a cyclical pattern, the problems facing us are deep and structural—not the type that the tedious process of demo­cratic change can fix in time to forestall mayhem.

Written with Empathy

1/ Try to use Oxford comma, and American notation for Date/Time

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2/ Trigger and Content warnings.

2022-03-08

警惕信息过载:Too much information, not enough brain

2022-03-11

Suddenly, we’ve entered a semi-lockdown status, all the employees are fleeing back to work from home. Voluminous conspiracy gossips are flying in the air.

2022-03-17

  1. Ikigai: Discover the reason for being.
  2. hinge: a central point or principle on which everything depends. (中枢).
  3. infidelity:cheating in a relationship.

今天和A君发脾气了, 是恐惧,是不够镇定。

2022-03-19

HAIZ means “Sigh”.

隔离真的让我焦虑,光是听到这个词,我就已经非常紧张。

生活需要留白,思考需要空间,重回隔离时光,自己好像那只Turning Red中的小女孩一样,在青春期的路口,一直徘徊不前,总是想着成为父母眼中期待的乖顺的东亚子代,那个看不见的行为圈圈似乎一直在我的脑海里盘旋:

红月当空,当家人们想对熊猫的spiritual作法,帮助小美摆脱monster时,这个仪式需要让被施法者小美同学待在划定好的⭕️内,不得动弹。

不得让我想到,对希腊人来说,天空中可见的圆圈运动揭示了一种宇宙式的逻各斯 (Logos) 和一种具有神性的完满; 对尼采来说,永恒轮回却是“最可怕的”思想和“最大的沉重”,古老的传统既是恩赐,也是诅咒,当小女孩在13岁时,第一次经历becoming women的月经初潮,第一次体味那个真实自我,第一次在母亲的期待面前敢于袒露自己,是需要莫大的勇气跨越这个圈的。

2022-03-21

pitch book (or pitch deck), also called a Confidential Information Memorandum,

最近整个世界似乎都处在一种on fire的状态,飙升的油价,同族的杀戮,还有令人震怖的空难事件,隔着屏幕都能感到灾难情绪。

2022-03-23

今晚终于解封了,在这封闭的几天WFH生活中,似乎重回了2020年那段时间,不知道生命的洞见与不见,似是几何?

2022-03-28

今天是WFH开启的第18天,也是被封闭管理(软禁)在小区的第10天。没有想到躲过了2020年年初的国内隔离,在三年后的上海,历史还在不断地重演。普通人的生活,似乎还是被卡在了一种巨大的不确定性之中,在Google上查询Lock down,出来的结果全是shanghai封城的消息,这个承载2,600万人口的世界性经济大都会,在此刻,似乎也是如此脆弱不堪,从来不存在什么魔都的特殊性,举国体制之下,哪有什么例外?

2022-03-29

在不确定感中衍生出来的焦虑,渐渐像是潮水淹没了我。

  1. 情绪化:极度焦虑和对于自己非常失望,对身边人发脾气,迁怒他人。
  2. 想躲起来,没有前进的勇气,像是溺水的人,自己的问题似乎总要怪罪于他人才让自己没有那么无地自容。
  3. 对于现有项目和工作的模糊认知,对于未来没有期待,失去了对于前进的十足渴望。

Day 19 继续在家上班的节奏似乎逐渐慢下,但也逐渐让人失序。

总是幼稚地犯错,然后懊悔与反思,对于身边人来说很不公平。不说气话,实事求是,好好讲道理,珍惜每一天,毕竟30多天后,这样的静谧时光可能就一去不复返了。

不重视,不期待,不努力的消极态度,只能用来对待NPC;对于真正关心自己的人,何必逞强,何必过于苛刻呢?

2022-04-03

奥弗顿之窗(英語:Overton window)是有关一段時間內大多数人在政治上可以接受的政策範圍的一种理论。

2022-04-08

清零政策正在把上海的人们变成孤岛。

2022-04-09

今天在看US Flow of funds 2021, 脚注上有一个缩写之前还没怎么接触过,对于上一财年12个月的业绩指标进行衡量,简单且好记:Trailing 12 months = TTM, refers to the past 12 consecutive months of a company’s performance data.

2022-04-12

The days of Yore means a long time ago.

今天看过一个更加魔幻的,为了逃离魔都,一个HK回来的孩子从普陀走了8个小时到浦东机场,为他的决断感到庆幸,也为我们相似的遭遇感到悲怆。

终于收到了公司的投喂,可是快一个多月过去了,家里的油已经快耗尽了。

小区的58号楼小洋人终于官宣了,嘴上说说的人道主义变成了微信群里对于阳性/密接/次密接的排挤。

如何获得内心的「immanent contentment」?在如此让人焦虑不堪的环境下,

Hectic Mondays and Tuesdays have gone. Father, father, help us, send some guidance from above!

2022-04-13

Carole Kings’s Tapestry is really nice to enjoy on a rainy morning.

2022-04-16

Nail the product design * Nail is a great word here.

2022-04-20

Wednesday afternoon is always filled many meetings I’d need to face and collect information from.

2022-04-22

明德生物/ 乐普医疗/东方基因/艾康生物, 为了防止大家抗原造假,每天变着法子发各种型号,各种款式的抗原自测试剂盒,真是煞费苦心。

prima facie = 初步证明,true, valid, or sufficient at first impression.

2022-04-23

It’s my Day 38 at Shanghai Prison. This city has already lost its attraction to me, as well as its international luster.

I’ve entered my sixth week of government-mandated home lockdown.

I am still hoarding, group buying groceries and food, the community is also a mess now.

What is exactly happening in Shanghai? Different people hold their own unique opinions.

How ‘‘Zero-covid” is working here?

I just don’t feel comfortable doing Mainstream Media narratives.

2022-04-24

Day 39.

Hustle life paces continue.

愈发感觉生活像是美剧梦魇绝镇里展现的那样,大家都渐渐的被恐惧吞噬。

New words column

  1. Running-gag/running joke =反复出现的笑话
  2. Pendo = Latin word of Value
  3. relaying context to the engineering team ~ relay means passing the information received.
  4. Fast-moving consumer goods (FMCG) = 快消品
  5. Learn the ropes = learn or understand the basic details of how to do or perform a job, task, or activity.
  6. Belle of the ball: 舞池中最靓丽的女孩子; Inflation-protected bond funds were the belle of the fixed-income ball in 2021.
  7. Low-fi: more like a general sketch on a product.
  8. evangelist = 布道者
  9. Bunk down = 睡觉
  10. Quadrangles (四合院)
  11. Sand the tension down 减少冲突
  12. Apostrophe = 撇号(making u look stupid)
  13. Dew = 露水
  14. Primer = 入门书
  15. weed out/wipe out = remove from the group 移除
  16. stay above the fray: not directly involved in an angry or difficult struggle or disagreement His political aides handled the controversy while he remained above the fray.
  17. Chronos: Greek word for time.

Editors:

  1. https://www.deepl.com/en/translator
  2. https://hemingwayapp.com/

Podcasts:

  1. SupChina: Reporting on China without fear or favor
  2. 文化有限

Cartoonists:

漫画真的是隔离生活中一种慰藉的神奇存在。

漫画家:

  • Tango
  • Jean Jullien https://www.jeanjullien.com/
  • Christoph Niemannn
  • keigo